Remain

What’s it like to completely submit to Jesus’ plan for your life?

There are no questions asked, no complaints emerging your lips, simply bold, unfettered, complete faith in God that He knows what He’s doing and you don’t.

Do I have that kind of faith in me? Somewhere, deep within my being, am I capable of possessing a faith that strong and that ignorant to the pulls of this world?

Examine yourselves, to see whether you are in the faith. Test yourselves. Or do you not realize this about yourselves, that Jesus Christ is in you?—unless indeed you fail to meet the test!

‭‭2 Corinthians‬ ‭13:5‬ ‭ESV‬‬ 

I know the Bible would say I am, because Jesus lives in me. But reading one thing and actually believing it are two completely different stories.

My biggest test at the moment is about waiting. Remaining. Being perfectly content in the circumstances I find myself in. Enjoying high school and friends and family and soccer and writing and kayaking and biking and chocolate and Knoxville and LIFE.

Enjoying growing up, even when it’s scary and I don’t want to.

Sometimes I just want to get past this stage in my life and be an adult already, but then other times I just want to hit the ‘pause’ button and stay frozen in this moment, forever.

I fear the future. I don’t know what it holds. But if I did, I guess that wouldn’t be much fun, now would it?

But that doesn’t mean that I never want to get there. I most certainly, blissfully do. Living in the ‘now’, though, is probably what I should be focusing on presently, instead of looking too far ahead.

Having that blind faith, and allowing Jesus to lead and conceding yourself to following. And sometimes, following can also mean waiting.

Remaining.