I should be studying for my US history midterm tomorrow, but smh…
Have you ever been sitting in the car, on the way to school or wherever, and then you flip to your favorite radio station and hear the morning DJ exclaiming how CHRISTMAS IS IN FIVE DAYS!!!!!
(That was me this morning, in case you couldn’t tell.)
It hit me this morning that CHRISTMAS IS IN FIVE DAYS AND I STILL FEEL LIKE IT’S DECEMBER 4TH.
I mean like how did this even happen?? Only last year I was counting down the days until December 25th, but this year time decided to move on without me.
I used to get so freakin’ hyped about the holidays and Christmas cookies and gift-giving (and gift-receiving, let’s be honest) and Mariah Carey’s All I Want for Christmas Is You and decorating the tree and Black Friday and Christmas morning breakfast with the family.
INSTEAD:
-I (stressfully) proofed and published an edition of the school newspaper.
-I bought Christmas gifts in my spare time between work and school.
-I left Thanksgiving early for a six-hour shift at the mall, only to turn around and work twelve more hours on Black Friday.
-I (stressfully) listened to Mariah Carey and Michael Bublé as I finished end-of-semester projects.
-I (stressfully) studied for finals and (stressfully) drank too much coffee drank several cups of coffee (because everyone knows you can never drink too much coffee).
All this to say that this Christmas season hasn’t exactly been as picturesque and carefree as it has in the past.
Everyone I know who is either A) in college or B) graduated college tells me high school midterms are nothing compared to college finals and life after school in general. But I just need to say one thing: I am still in high school.
Duh, right?
So let me handle my life, gucci?
Well, it hasn’t felt that obvious lately. Life is moving quickly (as evidenced by the supposed twenty days of December that I’ve either A) slept through or B) been sucked into a stress-generated tornado–both are entirely possibly). I feel ready for the next step–ready for what lies beyond the sometimes petty and pretentious world of high school. But at the same time, I’m not ready to move on and away–from my family, my friends, high school.
Just when I assure myself I have plenty of time left (fourteen months, to be exact), something big and important hits me in the face–BAM ACT SCORES COLLEGE VISITS EVERYTHING COUNTS.
But when I feel stressed and overwhelmed and looking beyond the now, I remind myself this clear, indisputable fact: I am still in high school.
SO CHILL OUT HAN.
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